Ok so this is the second time I will be writing this blog.
I stupidly went to look up a definition (the word was caveat and I wanted to make sure I was using it correctly) and forgot to look it up on the tab so I lost the whole post 😦
Quick review of the 28th: Found out that my local library turned me down again. I have applied to that place multiple times a year since I was 16. I’ve gotten 2 interviews in that time and didn’t get the position either time. I am bummed because it would have been perfect for me. Finally working in an area that had to do with my degree but I know that something better will come along. 🙂
This is what I really wanted to talk to you guys about though (and had written a very nice post about. ):
1) I do consider myself a Christian. That being said, I am going through a questioning phase and am having trouble finding solace and comfort in my faith at the present time.
2) I am a Christian who a) supports gay rights, b) reads Harry Potter, and c) says the occasional curse word. I know that being a Christian does not automatically mean you are prefect.
Onto the story:
So, my niece posted an article on Facebook entitled: ” Projecting Christian Conservatives Cry ‘Discrimination’ after Gay Grammy Weddings”. Let me say here and now, I did not read this article myself. As you will soon see that is not what set me off.
So, one of her teachers decided to take this as an opportunity to preach. I have seen this happen so many times that I really didn’t even bat an eye. So many people just throw the Bible around to serve their purposes that I normally just roll my eyes and go about my day. Then I saw this comment a few hours later:
The teacher:”God made me an alcoholic…..does that make it ok to drink?…..I’m trying to learn what God wants by reading his book. It really is a good book…lots of good stuff…..and some stuff I don’t fully understand.”
It is perfectly clear that you do not understand a LOT sir. First of all, it was your choice to drink. God did not put that beer bottle in your hand. You did that of your won free will. So while you’re reading God’s book why don’t you check out Psalm 139: 13-14. I doubt that the God that I was raised to know and I understand as a good and loving father would say ” Hmm, while I am creating this human life I’ll toss in some alcoholism as well. Just for kicks.” Noooo. Not how it’s done.
Before I show you the rest of our conversation I just want to say that the reason this set me off is because my dad is an alcoholic. Not recovering or recovered he IS an alcoholic. He was cruel and verbally abusive to myself, my mom, and my siblings for a few years before we got out . So for someone to try and compare being gay with alcoholism… is offensive on MANY levels.
Rest of the conversation:
Me: I normally try to stay out of things like this, but I really take offense to the “God made me an alcoholic” statement. My dad was a devout Christian (for a short period of time) before ultimately returning to drinking instead of caring about his family, himself, and his faith. God doesn’t make you an alcoholic. He did allow us to have free will though because he is a good and loving God. If my dad wants to be a better person, he knows who, not what, will help him. I won’t launch into my opinions on Gay rights (although I am on the pro side) but I will say, for all the horrible things my dad did and said he never said ” God made me drink”.
The teacher: Dang…I love my analogy….the point is that we all have certain challenges….that in and of itself doesn’t make it right to “give in”
Me: I agree but I do not want to follow a God that made my dad the way he was. No one should want to see people suffer that way. Your choices make you who you are.
The teacher: I agree….drinking is a choice, but being an alcoholic is not…..sorry about your Dad.
It’s at this point that I finally remembered my Grams’ favorite saying which is ” You can’t argue with stupid”. So I stopped trying. If he can’t even see the obvious correlation between drinking to excess(when it harms you or a loved one) leading to becoming an alcoholic how is he going to see anything else.
Like I said, I didn’t want to start a war with this post. I just wanted to show that there is ignorance out there. Until we all stop hating things we don’t understand we will NEVER move forward. I went home last night shaking with anger and cried about how someone can say that God made people like him and my dad do what they did. I don’t know what deity you follow, but it is sure not the one I grew up hearing about.
This is all I want: people to realize that LOVE IS THE SOLUTION. Love God, love others, love yourselves. No strings attached. You love people for who they are! I’m not perfect. Not at all! Faaaar from it but I know my family and friends love me because all of that together makes up this tiny fireball that is me 🙂
One closing thought, I saw this picture on twitter this morning and thought it went perfect with what happened:
Until next time, so much love to you all!